This week has been interesting to say the least. I woke up last Saturday or Sunday with a pain in my chest around the heart area, but being me, I ignored it and thought well it will go away I’m sure.
Four days later the pain was not going away. In fact, if anything it seemed to be getting worst. I’m not the sort of person that rushes to the doctors, but this was beginning to worry me a little bit so I rang the GP for an emergency appointment on Wednesday. After a short consultation, the GP suggested I go to the hospital as all the pain was centred around my heart and my blood pressure was sky high. In fact as she said dangerously high with a possible heart attack.
She wanted me to have an aspirin and send me to hospital in an ambulance. I decided against that, mainly because I thought it was a huge waste of resources and somebody else was probably in a much greater need than me. I was breathing and walking so I decided to drive home so my wife could take me down to our hospital.
On arriving at the hospital, panic set in. What if I’m really having a heart attack? Not possible I was thinking. I’m too young. Foolish thoughts because it really doesn’t matter how old you are, heart attacks can happen to anybody, anytime, any age.
While I was sitting with my wife waiting to see a doctor, many thoughts started to go through my mind. The first and foremost thought was that I really don’t want a heart attack. I have a good life now, a beautiful wife and five amazing children. This really started to strike home, how fragile that everything in life is. I went from a GP’s appointment to hospital in an hour, very scary.
On arriving at hospital I was given an ECG which came back relatively normal. Bloods were taken for testing, and my blood pressure was taken which was still crazy high, and finally I had a chest x-ray. I was examined by a doctor and then it was a waiting game to wait for results.
The chest x-ray came back clear and the second ECG came back as normal. The first set of bloods show a possible problem that there could be damage to my heart, so they needed to take more bloods to rule out any damage to the heart. My mind started to work overtime and worry the crap out of me. A lot of ‘what if’ scenarios started to grow through my mind.
Sitting here waiting for results certainly focuses your mind, or at least it did mine. I have so much to do with my life and quite honestly I’m not ready to go anywhere, not just yet.
The thought of possibly leaving my wife on her own is unbearable and not one I want to think about too much.
I want see all my children settled and happy with their chosen paths in life. My twin girls are only five years old, and the thought that they would go through their childhood without me, their dad, by their side it breaks my heart to even think about it.
The reality of the situation is we are not indestructible, which is something I always thought I was. If I was to have a serious medical condition it impacts much further than you realise. Your family dynamics would change forever. Which is what this day has taught me.
Life is very fragile and incredibly unpredictable and there is no doubt that we take it for granted that we think we are all going to live forever. The truth is we are not and that reality was brought home to me with a bang on this particular day.
The conclusion of my health scare is that I was not having a heart attack, thank god! The pains in my chest were more than likely muscular. In an ideal world that would have been the end of it, but that’s not the case.
During the day my blood pressure was taken on a regular basis, and this was where the problem was. My blood pressure was so high that I was in serious risk of having a stroke. This shocked me to the core. I genuinely thought that only happened to very old people. Which of course now I know it doesn’t, absolutely anybody can have a stroke.
I finally saw the consultant at the hospital at about 7pm in the evening and he explained that my blood pressure needed to be kept under control and that would be done via medication. To stop any future problems, my ECG had shown signs that my very high blood pressure had caused damage to my heart, but time would sort that out. Relief at last started to come over me that the problem was being solved.
The whole day has taught me a valuable lesson. First of all if you don’t feel as you would normally, go and see the doctor and don’t put it off for days as I did. Secondly don’t take life for granted, because it can be taken away from you in a split second. This is something I have never thought about before, but I will in the future that’s a definite.
Overall the whole day was a scary day that really put so many things into perspective in my life, because I want to be around a little longer for my wife and children.
Have you ever had a health scare that has put your life in perspective and made you think? I would love to hear.